Something is missing (emotionally), and missing (literally) from my life here in Ohio…. my family. When I was 10 years old we moved from Oregon on our trek across the midwest. As my dad was transferred he left daughters that fell in love and married along the way. Anyway, long story short, I now live in a state alone. (with Alex and my kids, but still alone) I have some good friends, but they aren’t replacements for my sisters, my mom and dad, brother. Alex’s family is here but they aren’t the kind that get together and play cards or Taboo or watch movies or go to the zoo together or just chat over coffee. I want to be with my family. Over the years the very closest friends I have had consistently are my sisters and my mom. I talk to them every day. We chat, we laugh, we vent….but I want to run to the grocery store with them, make them dinner and babysit when they have a baby, play at the park with all our children who are growing up without cousins. I want to go to a movie with them or a double date…..the list goes on and on. I’ve been trying to live in contentment and peace in God with His plan, its a daily struggle. Has been every day for the last 7 years. It doesn’t help that the man of my dreams has ZERO desire to ever leave. So I will keep on waiting on God to give me my heart’s desire. Waiting (on God) in Ohio.
I am so thankful today for tax returns. And for Alex having a job when so many people don’t. While I don’t like putting an entire tax return towards boring bills, instead of going out and getting something fun like we have in the past, I must say it feels SO SO SO GOOD to be out from underneath some of it. Next year we’ll pay off the rest of my school loan and be even more out of it. If only that car payment would magically go away too! The return was literally deposited into my account at 9 o’clock this morning and by 10:30 most of it was gone! Ok, gotta go. My little baby wants some attention.
My new favorite song! Enjoy.